"she writes."

if scribbling down all of my raw feelings helps, i'm doing it.

2009.12.06

Finally,

i’m working,
that means i’m going to be richer for the next sem,
that means i’m able to get my lens adapters and lenses for my G10,
that means i’m able to have more clothes,
that means i’m able to have more money to meet up with friends,
that means i’m able to get i-have-been-eyeing wallet.
that means i’m able to get two pairs of hava slippers, one for my bro.
that means i’m able to get fulfill my crave for bags,
that means i’m able to ‘give back’ coffee to some friends:D
and lastly, i can save some money for my 50D/500D.

YAY!

2009.11.26

tailoredheart:

(via immissingyou)

2009.11.24

2012

watched 2012, it’s a good show.

it made me realised that, humans have a habit. we always wait till the very last moment to speak, somehow humans have a problem saying “i love you” &” i’m sorry” when there’s time. is it pride?is it fear?it’s still uncertain.

&how confirm can you be when this is the very last moment or not?maybe it can be too late for the other party.maybe the cracks can never be mend, the love can never be felt anymore.

however, when there’s time shouldn’t we try to make things right?like in the show, at least the old man called his son, he tried.

will humans be there for each other when the world comes to an end?
will humans willing to die as a family?or will we go against with each other?

to be honest, this show scares me like no other shows do, it makes me fear.

the fear of not loving people enough while i can.

2009.11.20

"i told myself, i need some time to think. but i realised time is bullshit."

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Vulgarities.

i feel like some fucking idiot, fuck fuck fuck fuck.i feel like shit, i just want to curse and swear the whole day if it makes me feel better, but doubt so.

i hate looking at my photos, hate seeing myself going no where.i hate LIMITATIONS, but i’m limiting myself.how contradicting. if this is a joke, my life is the funniest joke.ah, fuck it! i just wish someone will throw a stack of money on my face and ask me to spend.why, tell me why!it’s seriously so depressing, so so depressing. i hate what my eyes had seen, i hate being me.i just feel so fucking hopeless and trust me, being me is the worst feeling ever.

FUCK!

2009.11.19

i want someone who would say, “…she is the girl of my dreams.

— Me.

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justin:

Watch this in case you’re not sure …

this is so…amazing.

2009.11.18

(via priscilla-jarvis)

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missmaes:

It just bothers me because you never really do know if he cares or if it’s just a facade. He could tell you that your his “only one,” but how do you know he won’t turn around and say it to someone else too? Relationships are hard and a lot of people say that it doesn’t work without trust, and yeah, that’s true. But I think in order to be compeletely head over heels, you have to be willing to be stupid. You have to be willing to fall.

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Loneliness taught me that I don't need anyone. Love taught me that someone will come.

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